Be As You Are.....

The emptiness of Being Empty ....
The fullness of Being Full...
Its just "Being" after all....
Always the beginning and also always the end...
There is no middle in it really....
just the feeling of a passing wave....
how long does a wave last?
a few seconds in time...
and yet nothing in eternity....

If time is a speck in the eternal...
and the past doesnt exist.... neither does the future...
the present is an illusion in itself....
for the sense of time is only in the mind.
Then what do you plan for?
and where are you headed?
You're on the road that leads no where...
and yet its paved with your sweat.

Stop for a moment... stay still for a while...
Who is the you.... thats living your life?
What are your thoughts & where is the thinking?
What is this searching? when its all already inside?

Lost are we all in in the web of layers....
one deeper than the next....
and yet we think we roam freely...
only to be in the prison of the self.

Drop your guns and your tools....
what use is it in a dream?
there is no you while you sleep....
when you awake... there was never a dream.

What do you wish to accomplish today?
Nothing is necessary....
You live like you are here forever...
when you leave its like you're life had never been...

So stop now...and witness the play...
dont you see the magic everywhere?
It blinds you in the day and restores you at night....
None of this is you.... you have always known that in plain sight.

Be as You are... its the only way to be.
Everything you thought of ... will cease to be....

Watch now... the world will pass you by...
while you smile and you laugh....
Wipe the tears of the ones who cry...
Lift up the ones who fall....
It is only you now....
Who has the strength for it all.

You were never lost and so you cannot be found....
You own the nameless name....
In forever you abound.

"Aham Brahmasmi" - I AM Totality.

- ISHA.

What is ISNESS ?????

Yes the Eternal question - What is Isness? Who am I ?

Everybody has a an idea, a belief or a spiritual experience when it comes to knowing and finding God. But finding God - is just the second to last step - like the tearing through the fabric sky of the Truman Show. God does not exist - simply because the human "ego" does not exist. God exists only in context to human beings. No human beings = no God to love, seek or worship.

But Human beings do exist - of course we do - but we all exist in our own Truman show - not knowing that its all fake. Its all a dream. Of course in the show/dream a God exists too. A very loving one. But its not the Ultimate. Eventually.... no matter how amazing the show is ..... everyone starts feeling an itch, a discomfort....a feeling that something is not right.... something is weird, odd.... something is missing.... and so the search begins, for the Ultimate Satisfaction. The seeking and exploring..... of what the hell is going on? Who am I? What does it mean to be spiritual? What is Enlightenment? How do you get there?

This note is not about the "process" of enlightenment but what happens after? Whats behind the final door? What happens once you go through the gateless gate? What happens when Truman tears through the fabricated sky? It is the point where the ego dissolves.... more like the projected hologram withdraws itself - this is Enlightenment - along with the ego dissolves also the idea of "2's" - of duality - human beings and God are one - not 2. The God that you were searching all along was you yourself. There was never a God outside of you that needed worship or seeking. Sai baba - says it beautifully - "The distance between you and God is the distance between you are yourself."

The Love, the Faith, the Hope, the Surrender that you feel for an invisible God - you will eventually feel for yourself, within yourself.... then with everybody else..... then with the Universe at large. There is no authority outside of you. You are your own Guru, your own God that you have been looking for.

So if you and God are one - and both dissolved in Enlightenment - or rather did not exist to begin with then what is the source of everything? ISNESS - ISNESS - ISNESS - JUST ISNESS.

ISNESS is just another name for God - the only difference is that "God" is personal - there is emotion & devotion because God exists in context to human beings and the human ego.

Isness on the other hand is totally Neutral.

If I had to describe Isness from my experience of my present reality - it would be something like this - (note - no amount of description through words or language can describe Isness - and neither can "a mind" comprehend it. But here goes.....)

Imagine Isness - Eternity - extending infinitely in all directions - pure Nothingness. Somewhere in the center ( well there are no boundaries so there is no "center" - but just for the sake of understanding use your imagination.) ..... in the center - is "ALL" of existence - and with that I mean - all the universes - all the galaxies - the number of which cannot even be counted - the observable universe alone may contain a 100 billion galaxies, all the milky ways - in our own galaxy the sun is just one of 100 billion stars. Everything - Everything that "Exists" is just a tiny speck within "ISNESS." Phew and thats not it......

"ALL" of existence that is within this Infinite Neutral Isness - is like a giant Ocean - and everything that is existing within this existence - be it a universe, a sun, planet earth, you, your neighbor, your dog, the tree on the curb, that terrorist you hate - everything is just a wave in the ocean of existence. Nothing is really solid or has an identity of its own. Ever watched an Ocean? How long do the waves last? What is the nature of each wave? The wave arises from the ocean - holds an identity as "a wave" for a few seconds - still being an extension of the ocean the entire time and then merges back into the ocean. A full circle.

That's what is going on. Everything that exists - just flows like waves.
The "human experience" is that of a wave arising - but forgetting that it is an extension of the ocean..... and thus the search for the ocean... and when it merges back - "the ego or the identity" that once existed - dissolves back into nothingness - ISNESS. When the ego is gone what remains? The True Self remains which = No Self which = ISNESS. Always has been, IS & always will be. Eternity.

Even all of existence that looks so solid within Isness - is just a concept, an idea that is projected by Isness itself. Like a hologram. You, our planet and everything that exists - is appearing and disappearing 1,000,000,000,000,000,000,

000 times in less than a second..... we are all popping in and out of existence so fast that it all looks solid. Just like if you saw a moving fan - it looks like a sphere moving like a Frisbee...but the minute you turn the fan off - you realize its not a round disk - but in fact 3 separate blades that were moving so fast.

So what is the meaning of life? Nothing. What is the purpose of life? Nothing.
As long as you are experiencing yourself as a separate wave - of course there is meaning & purpose in the relative context. And the meaning is whatever you want it to be. Its all about you. You really are the center of the universe and everything revolves around you.

But when you experience yourself as the ocean again - or better still - when you experience yourself as "ISNESS" again - then what meaning or purpose remains? There is not a feeling of "I" anymore - just the feeling of nothingness which = ISNESS which = everything (and Nothing.)

This was my experience of enlightenment - I was in India - and late at night - my eyes were suddenly glued shut for what what I can only imagine must have been 5 hours or so.... and within that time - "Radhika and the "I" feeling was gone and instead "I" was ISNESS - and all of existence and creation was within me like the ocean and the waves in it. The feeling was very neutral. Absolute nothingness. In those 5 hours everything there is to be known was known to me. I was asking all the questions & I was myself answering them to myself.

And then I collapsed - unconscious - deep sleep - when I awoke the next morning - EVERYTHING was different - Radhika existed no more - Isha was uncovered. Of course no one jumps to realizing ISNESS right away & neither did I - enlightenment looks and seems like a process - you do first grow & evolve more and more spiritually - start aligning more with the spirit - then there is a definite experience of "unconditional love - Godhood - a very personal feeling - an experience of "Oneness" with everyone & all beings - and finally its the Experience of ISNESS - I AMNESS - Neutral. Everything dissolves. The world is not broken and so there is nothing to fix. Everything is Perfection. There is neither Creation, nor Destruction, Neither Free Will, nor Destiny, Neither Path, nor Achievement.
It ALL Just IS.

My friends still ask me why? why all this? Why do we all exist?
And all there is to say is this - for those who get a little emotional about it - "God separated himself from himself - so that he can Love himself."

Everything just IS.

ISNESS - GOD - is just going through a full circle. Like a wave in its own being.

ENJOY ;-)

From Radhika to Isha.....

Isha means Isness - the primordial formless energy that is the source of all creation.

This piece of writing and the one before this- clearly shows that there is a new person here now. Or rather an “unperson", a nonperson. I know that's not even a word. But what do you call someone who has none of the human traits and needs? Enlightened? Hardly. Enlightenment implies that there is an ego & ignorance that exists which needs to be dissolved or destroyed through the process of enlightenment. To the unenlightened - this looks like a long journey - a huge goal - a ton of seeking & searching & exploring. To the Enlightened - there never was a journey, never a goal. Who did all the seeking & searching? The ego doesn't exist, and neither does your mind. So who was Ignorant and who got Enlightened? Who realizes What? As my good friend Joe Sarti said to me - “The Enlightened One realizes there is NO Enlightenment and that's the Enlightenment.” The Ultimate paradox. Enlightenment does not Exist. There is Nothing to Realize.
The following is my process from Radhika To Isha.... that started In Chicago - but ended in India....

They say that heartbreak or loss of love is the ultimate form of human suffering. Some recover from it and learn to move on and for some (like me ) its the “last human experience.” For me my ultimate suffering turned into my biggest blessing - an excuse if you will to turn my caterpillar into a butterfly. It sounds cool buts its not all fancy.... the transition is anything but pleasant. To pass through the "gateless gate" is the most agonizing, painful, heart wrenching process one will ever go through. Its pure madness. Total insanity. Your mind has turned in on itself. You are at war with yourself - how do you beat that? You cannot win - and neither do you loose. Your thoughts, your mind is not you. The "you" that you think of & know of as you is not the real you. The one that is fighting the war is not the one that emerges victorious, it is not the one that passes through the final gate. Everything that consists & comprises of “you” dies - yes it is the final suicide - and what remains "IS" what always has been. The hologram, the illusion has ended - and the source of it all remains. Pure ISNESS.

After my heartbreak - there wasn't the usual “human pattern” of loss & gain, of mourning & moving on that I was expecting. There was no mourning or no feeling of loss of “him”, a “relationship”, a “love” - instead there was something in me that was screaming ENOUGH - there was something in me which for some reason was not affected at all by the biggest heartbreak tragedy of my life. In fact after the incident - I almost had instant amnesia - I could remember nothing of my loss or my suffering.... total numbness. No thinking, no tears. A total zombie like state & yet I was aware that something in me has stayed constant all through life just like a witness. Its like I had woken up from a dream.

Even through my numbness there was intense pain - which I knew had no cause. Which is odd because all human experience of joy or pain is “due” to something. All human experience is based on “cause and effect.” My pain seemed to be emerging out of nowhere. It just “was”. Literally infinite amounts of pain, with the intensity of earthquakes & tornado's just emerging from within me. Months of complete insomnia. The loss, the pain, the agony, the tears that I was experiencing was for the Death of “Me”. Everything that I identified and associated as “Me” was dying - dreams, ambition, sense of care, sense of exploring, seeking, doing, hope, my sexuality.... my identification as a “woman” & consequentially my search for a man & love - All Gone. Everything dissolves. Vanishes.There was a definite end of “hope” - there was no more searching of anything. Who was there to hope for? And what do you hope for? Nothing exists. There was nothing to Be, Do, or Have. Nothing felt “new” anymore - even if it appeared to be. A feeling like everything has ended - and “THIS IS IT” - I lost my ability to think about “a future.” In fact my “thinking process” in itself was gone. The “thinker” had died. No matter how much I tried - there was nothing - further - nothing to look forward to other than more nothingness.

I was beginning to experience myself as 2 - a me that is just constant and still - thinking nothing - wanting nothing - just witnessing. Then there was a hologram of me - a not real me - that was acting and communicating in the world - pretending and appearing to be normal like everyone else. This hologram eventually faded away. And now there is just One that remains.

When anyone asks me about finding a mate again - or falling in love - the feeling in me as a response to that is indescribable - a feeling... a knowing that I am on the highest mountain top in the world - I can see everything - really really see - EVERYTHING - the view is spectacular and breathtaking..... a sense of being complete - everything i have ever wanted, desired, or hoped for is here ... in me. I AM it. All of it. A perfection. An absolution. Finding a mate would be like walking down this mountain and returning to the shallow valleys! NO WAY - nothing in the world is worth giving up this view from up here! No prize, no jewel compares to this! But more importantly - after enlightenment, identification with woman - man goes away. Dissolves. You are not your sexuality. The idea of man, woman doesn't really exist - its just another very deep layer of the workings of the ego. When I move about in public...my experience of myself is that of being "invisible" to all people. My experience of myself is nothingness.

Celibacy, loss of desire, detachment from all outcome, loss of preferences, the loss of that constant voice in your head,- are all natural outcomes or by products of enlightenment.
Enlightenment is the Gain of Nothing. Pure nothingness.
The finding of your "true self" is a "No-Self." All that Is is just Isness.
Enlightenment isnt the gain or realization of anything new - its the unveiling of what always has been. Of what IS.

Everything in the world that was once soooooo appealing to me - so important... it has all lost its charm .... they all look like scraps to me - like waste in the bin. Pointless, meaningless. All the world pales in comparison to this inner state of Being.... of Isness.
Time looses its reality. All that is - is in this moment.

Even human beings loose their appeal - before I would get excited to know someone new - sometimes feel intimidated by great personalities - all that is gone. Now I have no "need" or desire to "get to know" someone - its like you see one - you’ve seen them all. Know one - and you know them all. Like leaves on a tree. There is nothing to really know about a person. No one is even there - everybody is empty. The only thing that is there is the ego - the same in everyone - just in different proportions and colors. Thoughts, opinions, beliefs dont matter. They dont even exist. Everything is false - everything belongs to the ego - Everything! Everything that a human does from birth to death - every thought he thinks, all the activities he engages in, its All just to fuel the ego and keep it going - all effort only to uphold this hologram of an ego!

What I now see in people is their pure Isness - their Pure Being veiled behind their egos. There is an instant love for whomsoever I see or interact with - the Isness in them is an extension of my own being. Its all me wherever I go.

All fear, all care, all searching and wanting in me is replaced by “a presence” - so vast, so deep - in all directions. Every time I go out for a run - I feel all of existence talking to me - every breeze feels like a giant hug.... every tree I lay eyes on acknowledges my presence. Every blade of grass, even the solid pavement feels like family... so much love from everywhere - how did I not see this before? How was I so blind? and where did the “me” go? its like the “me” that used to be just vanished - evaporated in thin air almost as if it was never there to begin with.

Radhika died and Isha was born.... actually Radhika died and "uncovered" the Isha that was always there.

There's no Turning back...the Beginning is the End.

Amongst all the the different roads that one walks on in their lifetime, there is one road, a nameless and formless one... that a chosen few are called upon...The spiritual road is a one way street - there is only an entry. No exits, No U-turns. Not even a left or a right. The march is always Forward. Even when you feel you have arrived. There is always a step Further.

No one voluntarily chooses this path... you are always forced into it. No warning. No signs. Not even a choice or an idea of Free will. Like a fish to a bait...you are lured into the most enticing trap... almost as if hypnotized under a spell. Its a pleasure you have never known before, a love that feels so absolute. A bond, a trust so strong, you feel you've been graced by the lord. The whole world pales in comparison to this kind of joy. And yet, all the while... little do you know, you walk innocently towards your impending doom. Like sweet suicide.

The final moment of death...actually feels quite surreal. As if you are watching yourself end...in a dream within a dream. I dont remember any pain - only shock at first followed by months of numbness. The reflection in the mirror has gone. And Gone are all your thoughts and preferences. Your empty mind pulls you into a vortex of the "self"...something is beginning to awaken. There is no turning back now. You have entered the spiritual realm. Worldly doors close behind you. And the road ahead is just a haze.

The air of freedom fills your lungs...like a new born taking its first breath. Surrender replaces fear... there is nothing to lose now. The I that lived belongs to the world of the dead and yet there is an I that is alive? Am I reborn or have I finally emerged? Who died and who lives now? Who suffered and who is free? Who loved and what was lost? Past, present, future melt into one. You, your suffering and your freedom are one. The wave has become the ocean again. You are home.

You awakened yourself. There was never an enemy.
You have always been ONE... there was never anything else..other than You.
You were never ignorant... and thus enlightenment can never be achieved.
For how can you search for that which you already are?

There was never a path... never a road..
Never a beginning, never an end...
You traveled from nowhere to now here.
When you awaken ... you realize there was never a dream.
It has always been just You...before and after...
Just... ISNESS... just You.
Its ALL just You.
Soham.
Aham Brahmasmi.
Om Shanti Shanti Shanti.

The Real Mantra...

Asatoma sad gamaya
Tamaso mah jyotirgamaya
Mrityorma amrutam gamaya

Translates to...

Lead us from Unreal to Real...
Lead us from Darkness to Light...
Lead us from Death to Immortality.

What is a Miracle?

To Some - Eating and Enjoying their meals is guaranteed.
To others receiving even one meal is a Miracle.

To some - having a nice comfortable home is natural.
To others having a roof, sometimes on a cold rainy day is a Miracle.

To some - wearing beautiful clothes is taken for granted.
To others having a small wrap to uphold their dignity is a Miracle.

So what is a Miracle?
Ask yourselves - Am I Fortunate?
Each One of You today are surrounded by innumerable Miracles,
The Miracle of Life, The Miracle of Being surrounded by God.
All that You have today is a Miracle.

Whatever you are blessed with...
Remember there is someone out there deprived of those same blessings.
Be Grateful! Be Thankful! Be Content!
Be Generous! Be Compassionate! Be Helpful!

Do not complain like a broken record...
Each one of you are blessed...with a special gift of Love.
Find your gift, unwrap it - treasure it.

- Satya Sai Baba.

My Ultimate Search....

I don’t know about the rest of you, but since I was 8 i have been very curious about how the universe worked. I remember always sticking my head out of the car window at night and staring at the moon - and I would go into this zone in my mind where I would wonder what it was like before any of this existence was created - what was it like before God made the moon and earth? What was God doing? Was he bored? Caught up in these thoughts, suddenly I would find myself feeling so vast within. Like as if I was extending into space, and nothing else existed except black nothingness! It felt like I was under a spell. Obviously at 8 years old I didn’t understand any of this. I was just completely mesmerized and fascinated by what I was experiencing. Like getting lost in a magical fantasy world that only I knew off! It was my secret.

As I grew older I got more curious. I had so many questions that didn’t make any sense to begin with. I must have been 10 or 12 years old, when Satya Sai Baba one of the great avatars (God embodied as human) in India was visiting Mumbai. (Known as Bombay back then.) My Mother has been a devoted follower of Sai baba since she was 13 and she has strived to instill the same devotion in her children. So she took me with her to get Sai Baba’s darshan (to see and receive blessings). It was a really hot day and people had gathered in the thousands just to get a glimpse of this man who is a divine powerhouse. His power and grace is undeniable. I was holding my moms hand, hoping not to get lost in the massive crowd - when I suddenly looked up to her and asked her - “Mom, if God made the world, then who made God? Where did God come from?” I can never forget that blank look on her face. She was totally stumped. With a stammer in her voice she tried to answer my questions with very vague answers like - “God is God.” and “Thats a very stupid question.” Her loss of words made my aunt who was there with us break into a hysterical laughter. While my mother was trying to shut me up, my aunt encouraged me, saying that my questions were a good start. And I should keep going at them, and someday I’ll find the answers. She had no children of her own, that day I could feel her love for me and how smitten she was by my innocence.

Brutal as it sounds, and Im sure every adult will agree with me when I say that eventually life strips us from our child like innocence. My first heart break at 16 made me feel like I was electrocuted with pain. It was my first real tangible experience of “suffering.” My reality as I knew it, had dissolved into this swamp of questions. I wanted answers and I wanted them NOW. I started reading ceaselessly. I bought every spiritual self help book that I laid eyes on. Dr Wayne Dyer became one of my favorites. As they say, “the teacher appears when the student is ready.” I found my first guru (enlightened master) - Sri Sri Ravi Shankar - founder of The Art Of Living in India. I immediately signed up for his courses, and I was officially initiated into a meditation designed by a guru. (Even though I have been meditating in my own way since I was 5.) I was so excited and lost in this new world full of “spiritual” people. I was having amazing transcendental experiences. I was happy all the time. Everything around me seemed beautiful. I even started feeling superior to most people. Especially my friends. Because I was “spiritual” and they weren’t. I thought I had found all the answers. Little did I know this was just the beginning. I even shaved off my long black hair - thinking Im some kind of Buddha prodigy. My bald head caused quite the stir in my college. My ego and pride back then was hilarious. Eventually my ego got another hit when I was heartbroken again at 20. This time not only did I shave my head again - but I renounced all together. (Its ridiculous how every time I get my heart broken I either cut my hair very short or shave it off completely. I think most women have this need to do something with their hair when they go through a bad break up!) Anyway - this time I had found new answers under a different Guru - Sadhguru Jaggi Vasudev. He is the coolest and the most unconventional guru I know of. When he enters a room, it feels like as if a lion has walked in. He has the most penetrating eyes I have ever seen and just the sound of his voice will send shivers up your spine. I definitely felt like he was the “One” - the father of all gurus. He was my ticket to enlightenment - I was convinced. I got initiated into a whole new set of intense meditations and breathing practices. Spending time with him and his other disciples I felt like layers and layers that constituted who I was - were getting peeled off me! It was quite a painful process. There would be nights that I would cry myself to sleep for no apparent reason. And then there would be days that I felt so much joy & excitement that my body was not enough to contain it. I felt like I was falling in love - strangely enough not with a man - but with something inside of me, and around me. Looking at the sky would make me blush. I would hug trees and talk to bugs! Sadguru made me go through a 3 day process that all his followers are allowed to go through just once in their lifetime. Its supposed to change your perception forever. I was excited. But I had no expectation - and I made sure I gave a 100% of myself in those 3 days. What followed cannot be put into words by anyone. Simply because those 3 days take you beyond your mind. And what is beyond the mind cannot be explained or understood. It can only be experienced. Those 3 days took me beyond the boundaries and confinement of my body and my thoughts and what I considered to be little “me”. Suddenly I felt that I had merged into everything that has ever existed. Right from a grain of sand to the biggest mountain. There were moments where I felt that I was pregnant, as if the entire universe was somehow inside of me. Every plant, animal and human being felt like an extension of my body. I didn’t know where my body ended and where “something” else started. For a few moments even the existence of “me as girl” had dissolved. I was everything and nothing at the same time. It seemed like my mind and my personality had gone into a coma like state. My body was caught in what looked like a severe convulsion and I was crying so loud that Im sure it was deafening to the people around me. I felt so humbled and yet vast and eternal at the same time. My face and my t-shirt were soaked in my tears. What I had heard was right - my perception had changed forever. I felt mutated. It was a whole new me that had nothing to do with who I was before the 3 day process. I was in love with everything. Every moment in time had a kind of shine or glitter to it. I had a new sense of appreciation for the world, a new level of empathy and connection with whoever I interacted with. Obviously the intensity of this experience faded with time, but nonetheless I was living with more awareness than ever before. With this new found sense of self I decided to travel for the next few months, just to see what else could there possibly be to experience? I did everything from hiking the grand canyon, to sky diving, & scuba diving to getting my tongue pierced and my body tattooed. I back packed through America for 3 months straight, and I never spent more than 7 days in any place. I had so much energy in me that needed to be expressed in some way. I felt invincible for a while. When I returned to India (because my funds were over), I was pretty much unrecognizable.

Within a few months I found myself caught in the grind of life again. Its amazing how much we are affected by our surroundings and the people around us. Living in India I started feeling claustrophobic. I knew this is not where I want to live my life. I almost felt like there are 2 versions of me that exist simultaneously - one that gets caught in the daily drama, and the second thats just watching all of this daily drama like some kind of a movie, totally detached from any preferences or any outcomes. Eventually I found my way out of India and back to America. I got myself enrolled in a Masters course in a university in Iowa. Call it destiny or sheer luck, but this university happened to be founded and run by an Indian enlightened guru called Maharishi Mahesh Yogi. My 3rd guru. Its strange how are lives get pulled in certain directions. I spent the next 2 years studying at this university which had the most unconventional but strict daily routine for all of its students. No exceptions. We were all required to meditate 2 to 4 hours a day. We were even graded on our meditations. And if you didn’t make the grade then you couldn’t graduate! I had courses that studied the evolution and the different levels of human consciousness. What gets you enlightened and what doesn’t? 9:30 pm was bedtime and I would be up before 6:00 am. Following a pure vegetarian diet and with hours of daily chanting and reading of ancient Indian vedic texts - I finally graduated with a Masters in Vedic Science in 2007. Was I enlightened by the end of it? Definitely not. But I must say that those 2 years were some of the best years of my life. I was surrounded by the most amazing people. People who were all driven by the same intense burning desire to crack the code of enlightenment? What on earth is it all about? Needless to say I made some real close friends. The ones you know you’ll have for life. Everybody I met there had strange stories of their own. This little university in the middle of nowhere in Iowa is like a magnet for like minded people. This place had an energy that would just make things happen effortlessly. Every time I go there things just magically fall in place. All the pieces of the puzzle come together. The years that I was studying there, I was at my healthiest. My body was so fit and strong, I almost had energy that would extend past my body. My mind was always so awake and aware. And obviously I had some pretty cool experiences there too, which probably need a book of their own.

So why am I telling you all of this?

Whether you are actively searching and yearning for enlightenment or not, there is something within all of us that drives us in certain directions. There is something in us that is never satisfied and is always looking for more. We could be lucky enough to find the love of our lives and yet there are times that we feel that nobody can really ever know us and we are all alone. There have been times in my life where I have been paralyzed with the feeling that I don’t know who I am or what I want? Everything seemed pointless, as if there is nothing to be, do or have.

I truly believe that God exists in every atom, every molecule of this existence. In that sense the only true form of God is within each one of us. Our conscience that has a voice and speaks up every time our internal compass points towards something wrong, the peace we feel when we have occasionally managed to quiet our minds, the joy we feel when we have made someone else happy - these are all signs of our divinity within.

I am God, You are God, we are all Gods - and so is every grain of sand, every plant and every animal. But the only strange thing is that we are not consciously aware of it. Maya and our egos have done such a superb job of overshadowing our Godhood that we are blind to our own eternity. Like fools we go searching for what we already have.

But as the great Sai Baba says - do not be distressed - The God within you will not rest until it is awakened completely. It is the God within that triggers your curiosity and makes you wonder "Who is God? Who am I? What is my purpose? What is the meaning of life? It is the God within you that sends you on this ultimate search...

And as you start listening to this inner God voice - the more you get guided in the direction of enlightenment - the more you follow the signs - the more the God within you awakens! Its a paradox - It is God itself that awakens the God in you! And eventually - inevitably - you return home - to your true nature of Godhood. The ego falls away like a snake skin. Have I returned home yet? No - But I know that my compass is pointing where it is supposed to - towards my beloved God... and very soon I will make it. I will be home at last. A happily ever after. I urge all of you to do the same. All you have to do is be honest and sincere to your voice within. You are the God that you have been looking for.

Peace be with all.
Samastha Loka Sukhino Bhavantu.
Om Shanti Shanti Shantihi.