There's no Turning back...the Beginning is the End.

Amongst all the the different roads that one walks on in their lifetime, there is one road, a nameless and formless one... that a chosen few are called upon...The spiritual road is a one way street - there is only an entry. No exits, No U-turns. Not even a left or a right. The march is always Forward. Even when you feel you have arrived. There is always a step Further.

No one voluntarily chooses this path... you are always forced into it. No warning. No signs. Not even a choice or an idea of Free will. Like a fish to a bait...you are lured into the most enticing trap... almost as if hypnotized under a spell. Its a pleasure you have never known before, a love that feels so absolute. A bond, a trust so strong, you feel you've been graced by the lord. The whole world pales in comparison to this kind of joy. And yet, all the while... little do you know, you walk innocently towards your impending doom. Like sweet suicide.

The final moment of death...actually feels quite surreal. As if you are watching yourself end...in a dream within a dream. I dont remember any pain - only shock at first followed by months of numbness. The reflection in the mirror has gone. And Gone are all your thoughts and preferences. Your empty mind pulls you into a vortex of the "self"...something is beginning to awaken. There is no turning back now. You have entered the spiritual realm. Worldly doors close behind you. And the road ahead is just a haze.

The air of freedom fills your lungs...like a new born taking its first breath. Surrender replaces fear... there is nothing to lose now. The I that lived belongs to the world of the dead and yet there is an I that is alive? Am I reborn or have I finally emerged? Who died and who lives now? Who suffered and who is free? Who loved and what was lost? Past, present, future melt into one. You, your suffering and your freedom are one. The wave has become the ocean again. You are home.

You awakened yourself. There was never an enemy.
You have always been ONE... there was never anything else..other than You.
You were never ignorant... and thus enlightenment can never be achieved.
For how can you search for that which you already are?

There was never a path... never a road..
Never a beginning, never an end...
You traveled from nowhere to now here.
When you awaken ... you realize there was never a dream.
It has always been just You...before and after...
Just... ISNESS... just You.
Its ALL just You.
Soham.
Aham Brahmasmi.
Om Shanti Shanti Shanti.